我 拒 绝 了。。。。。

我到最后还是拒绝了那个人。
原因没有别的。
就是我不想因为想恋爱而谈恋爱。
对我而言，感情最重要的是感觉。
我对他没有那种感觉。
与其骗自己和骗他，我选择了拒绝。

连续几天，他都对我发简讯，
就是因为他的太积极而让我感到害怕。
所以我选择不回他的简讯。
我知道这样子很可恶，
但我还是叫他不要浪费时间在我的身上。
这样，我反而觉得轻松的多。

So now, I will dedicate my time to studies.. and nothing else....

Peaceful...

Now i just want my peaceful life back....
I don't want anything else...
I just want back my same old life....

I've decided not to think of other matters..
I felt the stress and pressure...
In my thoughts, love is something that will soothe you,
and not making you to feel stress and uncomfortable...
If this is so, then i would rather not to have it...

Pls, my angel...
Restore my old llife...

I know that we have to look forward and not backward..
but somehow, i just wished to "delete" something from my recent life...
I never know that i will have such feeling..

So pls...
i want my peaceful life back...!!!!!!!

我 的 最 近。。。

我 最 近 的 生 活 到 底 是 如 何 的 呢？
老 实 说， 我 自 己 也 不 大 清 楚。

文 耀 最 近 谈 恋 爱 了,
似 乎 很 甜 蜜，
搞 得 我 心 里 有 点 想 要 谈 恋 爱。

其 实,
我 的 生 活 最 近 的 确 是 有 发 生 了 一 些 小 插 曲。
说 真 的， 我 也 只 是 怀 疑。
我 怀 疑 有 人 想 要 追 求 我。
请 不 要 说 我 自 恋，
因 为 凭 我 的 直 觉 告 诉 我，
那 个 人 好 想 对 我 有 意 思。
认 识 的 过 程 如 下：

-I was on the bus which will fetch us to the Bon Odori Festival.
-As I was going there alone by bus(because I will meet my friends there), I was sitting alone
-Then this guy came to me and ask whether there's someone sitting beside me or not...
- I said NO...
-Then he asked, can he sit or not..
- I said YES...
-He sat down and we start talking.
-I was having a good conversation with him.
Then he asked for my number.
-I GAVE him..
-Then I got his number too..
-Continue chatting...
-Then reach the so-called sport center..
-I went with my friends and he went with his..
-Then he called me and asked whether I found my friend dee or not...
-I said YEAH.. I found my friend..
-And then towards the end of the festival, I somehow found out that he was near by me..
-Then he asked whether can take picture with me or not...
-I said YES again...(friends mah)
-Turned out that his camera wasn't working somemore...(Samsung's fault..lousy camera)
-On the way back , I sat with my friends and he sat with his friends.
-He SMSed me..."What are you doing?"
-I replied "I am tired...want to sleep..."
-Then he asked where wil I meet my parents as it was quite late adee..
-I said my parents were there dee. Thanks for your concern...
-Ok..then i thought he will not contact me anymore...

HOWEVER....
The Next Day...
He messaged me...
Then we chatted...
I still didn't suspect a thing..
Then since then he sms me almost everyday...
Well I admit that it is my wrong for not replying some of his sms...
That because he keep asking me to meet up with him...
It's not that I don't want to..
But I feel that it's a bit weird if someone that you only know for two weeks keep asking me out...and I feel insecure...
Plus I can never go out without my mom's permission...
My life is like a prisoner's life...
If I tell him this, He will never believe...
Will you believe?
A 18-year-old girl is not allowed to go out with her friends whenever she likes..
She can only go out with friends for a few times in A YEAR!
How pathetic she is...
I don't mind if we chat normally online or sms..
Or maybe I've been thinking too much..
May be he just wants to be friend with me..
And now he sms me once in a while...
Trust me, I know that he is a nice guy....
It's just me.....

WHAT'S IS WRONG WITH YOU THANG SUAT WEI!!!!!!??????
I really don't know....
Can anyone tell me?

I don't mean to offend anyone...
So pls don be mad at me k?

I don't know why am I so weird...
I am the one who wanted to be in a relationship but yet..
I always don't have the courage to accept someone...
I am afraid that I will make a wrong decision...
Sometimes I just don't know what I want.....
Haiz....

话 说 回 来，
最 近， 我 发 觉 我 自 己 其 实 很 幸 福。
从 朋 友 到 亲 人，
他 们 所 给 我 的 呵 护、 关 心 及 鼓 励，
让 我 的 心 感 到 非 常 地 温 暖。
有 一 位 学 院 的 朋 友，
其 实 我 在 中 学 时 期 就 知 道 她 的 存 在，
只 不 过 都 不 认 识 对 方。
就 因 为 上 天 的 安 排，
我 与 她 都 在 同 一 班，
还 成 为 相 当 有默 契的朋友。

还有一群陪我渡过漫长的中学时代，
真的好想念你们。

感 觉 上，这个post 好像很奇怪。
因 为 和 开 心 参 半。

我 要 自 由！！！

Then...How about us?

The Prime Minister’s political secretary Datuk Alwi Che Ahmad said Abdullah was genuinely sincere about the talks.

“Pak Lah is thinking of the future of the nation. In his view, the Malays are the core group in the country. If they are split, then it would be difficult for the country to progress.

“National unity also depends on Malay unity and it was on that principle that the meetings were conducted,” he said.

Source: The Star Online

If this is really what happened, then how about us?
National unity does not depend on us?

My Name

What Thang Suat Wei Means

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I know...

I know that I was losing my mind yesterday...
but who wouldn't....

I really can't stand the attitude of some ppl...
Not to mention name...
i am still within my range..
Try to do it again if you dare..
and this time..
i will not tolerate...
you think you are so smart is it?!

I know i scolded bad word yesterday...
but i don't care...
Like what chee yuen had said..
this is the first time that i am so angry....

But some ppl just don't know where their limits are....
shame on you....

ERRRR...........

How do you(if you are a guy) feel when a stranger(A MAN!) called you babe?

OMG....
This happened to my econs teacher 4 years ago....

Have you encountered this kind of thing before?

Welcome back!!!!!

Today, a few of us meet up with yee hooi..


Welcome back dear!!!!!!


We hang out at starbucks for a while then we decided to pay Ms Lum a visit..


Haha....


Then we have chit-chatted at Old town Coffee shop...


So pics time:

From Left: Yi Ping, Yee Hooi, Me and Angie

Me and Yi Ping

Yee Hooi and Me

Me:)

That's all for today.....

A tiring but happy happy day....

Yee Hooi, I'll miss ya!!!!!!

What?!!!!!!!!!

It's only one week since college reopened...
and yet...i've already sensed the tension and the stress....
trial is in less than two months time...haiz...
really have to work hard....
Today we have bio practical...
and i couldn't finish the thing...
ended up i lost 10 marks because i didn't have time to finish the experiment....
Aargh..........
have to time myself and make sure that i can finish my experiment in time...
it was the Visking tube's fault....
i took so long to open that thing and tie it up...
well you know, when you just take it out from water..
it tends to stick together....
i suggested that we should be given a period of time so that we could be trained on how to open up a Visking tube...haha

i wonder why can't they prepare the Visking Tube for us during exam......?????
That's for all.... my mom it's time for me to go home....

Back to college

Hey....
Back to college dee....
The day was fine....haha...
Just not so in the mood yet for study...
BUT.....trials is around the corner.....
Now i hope that the holidays will be longer...
Haha.. me a weirdo...
Posting this from college....
Still waiting for my mom to pick me up...
Btw.. my mom finally bought a car for me....haha
but can't be too happy coz i am still not allowed to drive to college....
haha...
this is a short update...so yea..
ciaoz....
still have work to do....

Minesweeper 与人生

你曾经玩过minesweeper吗？
就是你需要找出bomb的位置，
找完全部就算你赢的那种游戏。
我现在所玩着的有三个level，
Beginner、Intermediate 还有Expert。
在这三个阶段中，我到现在还是无法玩完Expert 这个level.
这个level一共有99个bomb。
你一按错，就会前功尽费。
当我不能过关的时候，我真的很气。
都试了那么多次，怎么还过不了关。
有时候又很想放弃，但我又不甘心。

你得到什么讯息了吗？
这又是一篇关于人生的文章。
（我怎么那么爱写人生啊？）
我们总是在遇到挫折时，往往很想要放弃。
可是不完成某件事，又很想试着把它完成。
就算结果是个未知数，就算我们都心力交瘁，
我们还是想要尽我们的所能来完成它。
所以啊，我现在还在继续努力地过关。
要替我加油哦！

对我来说，梦想与理想都让我有了很好的理由，
要好好地活下去。
虽然这一些都非常得美好，
但梦也有醒来的时候，
当我们醒了过后，就是面对现实的时候。
我承认现实真的很残酷，尤其当它和我们的梦想是完全相反的时候，
那种感觉真的很痛。

不过这只不过是短暂的疼痛，
事情总会有雨过天晴的时候，
只要我们不要那么地执着，
学会去放手，我们一定会另有所获。
上天是不会逼我们去走死路的。
只要我们肯去面对，
一切的伤痛与烦恼，
一定会随着时间而消失地无影无踪。

你一定会想，你怎么知道，
你又未曾感受到我的困境，
这只是你一厢情愿的说法而已。
或许真的是如此，
我还有许多的人生道路还未走完。
但我已经经历了一小部分，
我只不过在把我的心得与你们分享而已。

就像一位朋友所说的：脱掉眼镜的世界真美好。（我们都是近视的）
不错，有时候模模糊糊地反而更开心。
哈哈。。。
又写了这么多的费话。

现在要继续加油去破关咯！


“当世界不知不觉得变了，
有时候我怀念以前的我，
做的梦虽然远远的，
想象是一种快乐。
拥有了同时也失去什么，
而眷恋原来会带来软弱。。。”

－－－－－－－－张韶涵《不想懂得》

我觉得这句子好有意义，所以就抄下来与你们分享。

一些事情......

最近在家里都很空闲，于是便多了很多时间让我胡思乱想。
我又开始再想关于人生的问题。
在这世上活了18年，老实说，我还不知道自己到底要什么。
可悲吧？
我不是在emo，我只不过是在很冷静地思考。（都说我很空闲。）
这两个星期内，我每天都上网阅读友人的部落格。
读着读着就从中获得了些启示。
胡思乱想了整个早上，得来的只不过是空想而已。
到现在我才发现我已经又浪费了一个早上的时间。

其实人生没有挫折就不算精彩了。
有些人或许会认为我年纪轻轻，哪会遇上那么多的挫折。
没错，我的挫折不算多，但每一个都会让我沉思。
以前我常常都会埋怨上天，埋怨他为何要让我面对这一切。
那段时间我总是在逃避问题，以为这样就能当作没事发生，一切重头来过。
或许这是一个懦弱的举动，但是这样确实让我没那么难受。

可是现在回想以前的事，我觉得自己真的好天真，以为只要不去想就会没事。
哈哈，真的是笑死人了。
经历了一些事情，我感觉自己好像长大了。
至少现在的我不会再逃避现实，该面对的事情，就勇敢地去面对。
虽然有时候真的不想去管、不想去理会，但我的理性还是帮了我一把。

人长大了，所面对的人事物都变得复杂。
有时候我很怀念过去的我，好想回到从前那个无忧无虑的我，
那个什么事都不用管的我。
可是可以吗？不可能。
所以我学会了坚强，坚强地去面对这一切的挑战。
尽管我不知道我是否能做得到，但我相信只要我有尝试努力过就无怨无悔了。

以前，当父母对我凶、对我又打又骂的时候，我一直在想为什么他们都不了解我想要什么。
我的叛逆都是因为你们不尝试听我的解释。
从小，你们要我做什么，我一定会遵从。
到我长大以后，我只不过是想从你们那儿得到一些自由而已。
你们就会以安全为理由，不让我自己做决定。
算了，反正只要到了21岁我就自由了。
不过，有时候想起他们对我的呵护，我又自责起来。
后来慢慢就明白了他们的用心良苦。

有时候我们会觉得父母怎么都不善解人意，
但他们也不是一生下来就是当父母的料呀，
他们还不是生了我们之后才慢慢地学习如何为人父母。
就像我们，也不是一生下来就懂得做父母的责任。
看来我们还是要当上父母后才懂得他们的辛酸。

我这个人很憧憬美丽的爱情，总是幻想着有一天会和我的真命天子有一个难忘的邂逅。
不过幻想归幻想，现实归现实。
要是我们想要什么就有什么的话，
那这世界不就太完美了吗？
天下是没有免费午餐的。
连早餐、晚餐、下午茶、宵夜都没有免费的。
所以呢，一切随缘吧。

这一路走来，真的很感谢那些为我带来希望的歌曲。
希望那些作曲人能多写好听的歌，
好陪陪我们这些人。

这就是我一整个早上胡思乱想出来的事情，
然后再从中午写到下午的“文章”。
是不是觉得我很得空呢？
没办法啦，谁叫我那么空闲。

写到这里，我的肚子又饿了。
别说我肥哦，饿了不吃东西可会胃痛的。
我才不要为了爱美而搞坏了身体。

读到这里的你们应该会觉得我超级无聊。
可是你们也不是一样，无聊到把整篇东西读完。
哈哈。。。。（开玩笑的啦！！！我谢谢你们都来不及呢！）

Hey....I am Back....

I just checked my results online..


Well I am ok with it coz it was kinda expected..


Just one subject... which is chemistry.. I am NOT happy with that..


I thought i knew how to answer the questions..but it did not turn out like what i've expected..


i got 3A's 2B's...


The following information is an extract from the results sheet:

Exam Type: Semester 1 Examination

#Code
Subject
Marks
Grade
Points
Remarks
1
AL-BIO
Biology
86
A
-
A very able student with great potential
2
AL-MAT
Mathematics
69
B
-
A very able student with great potential
3
AL-TKS
Thinking Skills
80
A
-
Good work and study habits have been maintained
4
AL-ECO
Economics
78
A
-
Good work
5
AL-CHEM
Chemistry
68
B
-
Agreeable and cooperative at all times

Ah well.....

Sorry for the late post on the gathering..
coz i wasn't feeling that well in this two days because of girls' sickness..
On Sunday the gathering was especially for Wen zhen and Tee Jin.

We will miss you guys a lot...
Since you guys are not going too far away from us,
I hope that you guys will come back as often as you can, k?

Wen Zhen,

You are such a great friend....

You gave me advice and always be there whenever i need you..

Thanks for everything.

I am going to miss you a lot..

Friends forever...

Tee Jin(the one on the left),

A funny person you are,

bringing joy to us...

S5 will be boring without you...

You have been a great friend...

I hope that we can keep in touch..

Lastly, I still love 5S5 the most!!!!!!!

Pool party or outing to mall?

Today, my parents fly to Hong Kong for holiday..
How nice..
They will only be back on Saturday.....
So, my sister and I will have to stay at home...
Plus, my sisters are having exam...
So basically, I am alone!!!!
This is the first time they go on to a trip without us..
Guess they want to have their honey trip..
Well guys, we will be organising a farewell party for those who are leaving..
I am wondering whether we should have an outing to a mall or a pool party..
If we are having a pool party, we will have it at wen yau's apartment most probably...
If not.. then we will just go to a mall..
So should you have any suggestion...
Pls inform me ya..leave a message at the chat box...
This is already the fourth day of my holiday..
BUT.......I AM SO BORED!!!!!!!!!
someone ask me out(provided you have transport....coz i don't have)..haha

朋友，出去走走。

This is a nice song...

Listen to it....

Finally.....It's Over....

Finally, my exam is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Muahahaha....
Well, I am not so confident in getting extremely good results,

But i really hope that I can get...

Since i've studied so hard for it..I've sacrifice a lot, I think, for this exam...

Although it is only the semester exam but i felt the stress one month before the exam..

I've never felt that before in my previous school life..

Guess this is because the exam really do take into account of my future,

That's why I am worried about it..

Unlike last time....I always study at the last minute...Haha....Looks like I am setting an bad example..

This what happen to my table during exams...

And my bed...

Everyone is busy studying.....

Except for them....

And this pot of roses are for me from them.....haha...

已经有好一阵子都没有上网了。

为的就是这个烦人的考试，这一阵子，我的部落格、friendster 等等，都没有更新。对那些每天催我写东西的人感到有点不好意思。不过因为我现在已经放假了，所以这两个星期内，我一定会尽量update。对于那些长时间浏览我的部落格的人，谢谢你们，因为肯花时间来到我的部落格。

这一阵子，有好几个朋友因为获得奖学金而会到外地念书。虽然很舍不得，但还是要恭喜你们。祝你们前程锦绣。不过你们一有空就要记得回来看我们。（他们去的地方不太远）

最近，常觉得无聊。想找人出去玩，又要问过母亲。有时候就干脆不问就拒绝人家，因为我早知道答案是什么。曾经想过为什么她把我管得那么严，只我知道她很疼我，所以要保护我。我常问她为什么我成年了，你给我的自由却还停留在我的小时候。她的答案总离不开社会。说这个社会太复杂。我也不是在埋怨什么，有这样的妈妈，我很幸福。可是我总觉得我不够独立。虽然上了college后她有给我的自由，譬如拥有我人生中的第一台手机、买东西也问问我的意件。

说穿了我也只想出去走走，见见朋友。

朋友，你们最近还好吗？

真的很想念你们。:)

I..............

I'd always think that I am important to someone...
But it doesn't turn out to be like that...
No matter how hard I've tried or how much effort I've put in...
I just couldn't be the apple of your eyes...
I've tried to improve...
I even sacrifice myself for you....
But you never turn your head back..
Leaving me to bleed there...
Not even a single consolation from you....
You might think that I am useless..
But you must know that I've tried my best to gain a place in your heart...
I don't know whether is it right to do that for you...
But I know what I've done is something that I think it's right....


One day....I will prove to you that I worth more than you can imagine.....
And you will see........

Mommy, I LOVE You!!!!!!!

Sorry for the late post but i really don't have time on this special day itself as i reached home quite late.

Anyway, yesterday we celebrated Mother's Day at Parkroyal Hotel.
We have lunch at the restaurant there,

The food is really delicious and i ate a lot...

This explained why i didn't eat any food after the lunch....

Then we went to Pavillion to shop...

My mom was so happy that she bought two pairs of shoes for me..Haha *evil smile*

After the shopping, we went to the Liu Li exhibition..

Well Liu Li is a type of mineral that are made into sculpture...

After that, we went home.

Mommy, I really thank you for being who you are and is always there to support me and hold me...

I know sometimes I've made you heart broken, but i really didn't mean to do that...

I really love you mom...

You are the best~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!

Mommy and Me

These are the pictures i took from the exhibition.

These are my two pairs of shoes

That's for all....Have a nice day..:)

Happy Mother's Day

周豫是个读书人，很喜欢吃鱼，也善于煮鱼。

朋友送来几条鳝鱼，周豫亲自展露手艺。他先将鳝鱼放入锅中，倒水，然后让鳝鱼自由自在地在锅子里游走。稍后，他才将锅子底升火，让水温渐渐提高。据说，这种烹调方式，鱼肉不会紧崩，口感一流，因为鱼儿无须经历被杀的过程。

奇怪的是，这一锅汤煮沸了，锅中竟然有一条鳝鱼的身体向上弓起，只留头部和尾部在煮沸的汤水中。鳝鱼死了，可是身体竟然保持弯起的形状，露出沸汤之外。

周豫深感好奇。他立刻将该鳝鱼捞出汤外，取刀剖开鱼儿的腹部，想要看个清楚。

鱼腹竟布满鱼卵。

为了保护肚子里众多的鱼卵，鳝鱼情愿将自己的头尾浸入沸汤之中，直至死亡。

周豫感慨，发誓不再吃鳝鱼了。

母亲往往为了子女而不惜牺牲自己。

在此，想祝各位母亲 "母亲节快乐"

身为孝子的你们， 会如何庆祝这深感意义的日子呢？

Anything..I will Do Anything Just for you...

I really like this song...

It really show that we are willing to do anything for our loves one.....

Really..Please listen to this...Chee yuen introduce this song to me....

So Chee yuen, I hope you can be brave to face your own true love...