我 的 最 近。。。

我 最 近 的 生 活 到 底 是 如 何 的 呢？
老 实 说， 我 自 己 也 不 大 清 楚。

文 耀 最 近 谈 恋 爱 了,
似 乎 很 甜 蜜，
搞 得 我 心 里 有 点 想 要 谈 恋 爱。

其 实,
我 的 生 活 最 近 的 确 是 有 发 生 了 一 些 小 插 曲。
说 真 的， 我 也 只 是 怀 疑。
我 怀 疑 有 人 想 要 追 求 我。
请 不 要 说 我 自 恋，
因 为 凭 我 的 直 觉 告 诉 我，
那 个 人 好 想 对 我 有 意 思。
认 识 的 过 程 如 下：

-I was on the bus which will fetch us to the Bon Odori Festival.
-As I was going there alone by bus(because I will meet my friends there), I was sitting alone
-Then this guy came to me and ask whether there's someone sitting beside me or not...
- I said NO...
-Then he asked, can he sit or not..
- I said YES...
-He sat down and we start talking.
-I was having a good conversation with him.
Then he asked for my number.
-I GAVE him..
-Then I got his number too..
-Continue chatting...
-Then reach the so-called sport center..
-I went with my friends and he went with his..
-Then he called me and asked whether I found my friend dee or not...
-I said YEAH.. I found my friend..
-And then towards the end of the festival, I somehow found out that he was near by me..
-Then he asked whether can take picture with me or not...
-I said YES again...(friends mah)
-Turned out that his camera wasn't working somemore...(Samsung's fault..lousy camera)
-On the way back , I sat with my friends and he sat with his friends.
-He SMSed me..."What are you doing?"
-I replied "I am tired...want to sleep..."
-Then he asked where wil I meet my parents as it was quite late adee..
-I said my parents were there dee. Thanks for your concern...
-Ok..then i thought he will not contact me anymore...

HOWEVER....
The Next Day...
He messaged me...
Then we chatted...
I still didn't suspect a thing..
Then since then he sms me almost everyday...
Well I admit that it is my wrong for not replying some of his sms...
That because he keep asking me to meet up with him...
It's not that I don't want to..
But I feel that it's a bit weird if someone that you only know for two weeks keep asking me out...and I feel insecure...
Plus I can never go out without my mom's permission...
My life is like a prisoner's life...
If I tell him this, He will never believe...
Will you believe?
A 18-year-old girl is not allowed to go out with her friends whenever she likes..
She can only go out with friends for a few times in A YEAR!
How pathetic she is...
I don't mind if we chat normally online or sms..
Or maybe I've been thinking too much..
May be he just wants to be friend with me..
And now he sms me once in a while...
Trust me, I know that he is a nice guy....
It's just me.....

WHAT'S IS WRONG WITH YOU THANG SUAT WEI!!!!!!??????
I really don't know....
Can anyone tell me?

I don't mean to offend anyone...
So pls don be mad at me k?

I don't know why am I so weird...
I am the one who wanted to be in a relationship but yet..
I always don't have the courage to accept someone...
I am afraid that I will make a wrong decision...
Sometimes I just don't know what I want.....
Haiz....

话 说 回 来，
最 近， 我 发 觉 我 自 己 其 实 很 幸 福。
从 朋 友 到 亲 人，
他 们 所 给 我 的 呵 护、 关 心 及 鼓 励，
让 我 的 心 感 到 非 常 地 温 暖。
有 一 位 学 院 的 朋 友，
其 实 我 在 中 学 时 期 就 知 道 她 的 存 在，
只 不 过 都 不 认 识 对 方。
就 因 为 上 天 的 安 排，
我 与 她 都 在 同 一 班，
还 成 为 相 当 有默 契的朋友。

还有一群陪我渡过漫长的中学时代，
真的好想念你们。

感 觉 上，这个post 好像很奇怪。
因 为 和 开 心 参 半。

我 要 自 由！！！