Disappointed, heart broken, sadness............

I was still very anticipating the days I am going to spend in other countries yesterday.
I even start to fantasize the life I am going to have over there.
But today, when the person in-charge told me that I can't go to Australia on the next semester,
to be honest, my heart really sanked. I was quite upset at that time. It's just that I don't want to show it out.

I know that I still have the chance to go next year but still.........
Do you know the feelings?
When you are anticipating something a lot, and all of a sudden someone told you that you can't do that. Do you know how disappointing it is?

GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am really very stressed up and confused right now.

So now I have a plan: either I go to australia for half year or I go to UK for a year or half a year for both countries.

BUT..............there is NO guarantee that I will get the offer.....:(

For now, I can't do anything right now except studying very very very hard to score well in my exam in order to raise the possibility of getting my application approved.

PLEASE-----I -BEG-YOU-MONASH, LET ME GO OK???????