我 拒 绝 了。。。。。

我到最后还是拒绝了那个人。
原因没有别的。
就是我不想因为想恋爱而谈恋爱。
对我而言，感情最重要的是感觉。
我对他没有那种感觉。
与其骗自己和骗他，我选择了拒绝。

连续几天，他都对我发简讯，
就是因为他的太积极而让我感到害怕。
所以我选择不回他的简讯。
我知道这样子很可恶，
但我还是叫他不要浪费时间在我的身上。
这样，我反而觉得轻松的多。

So now, I will dedicate my time to studies.. and nothing else....

Peaceful...

Now i just want my peaceful life back....
I don't want anything else...
I just want back my same old life....

I've decided not to think of other matters..
I felt the stress and pressure...
In my thoughts, love is something that will soothe you,
and not making you to feel stress and uncomfortable...
If this is so, then i would rather not to have it...

Pls, my angel...
Restore my old llife...

I know that we have to look forward and not backward..
but somehow, i just wished to "delete" something from my recent life...
I never know that i will have such feeling..

So pls...
i want my peaceful life back...!!!!!!!

我 的 最 近。。。

我 最 近 的 生 活 到 底 是 如 何 的 呢？
老 实 说， 我 自 己 也 不 大 清 楚。

文 耀 最 近 谈 恋 爱 了,
似 乎 很 甜 蜜，
搞 得 我 心 里 有 点 想 要 谈 恋 爱。

其 实,
我 的 生 活 最 近 的 确 是 有 发 生 了 一 些 小 插 曲。
说 真 的， 我 也 只 是 怀 疑。
我 怀 疑 有 人 想 要 追 求 我。
请 不 要 说 我 自 恋，
因 为 凭 我 的 直 觉 告 诉 我，
那 个 人 好 想 对 我 有 意 思。
认 识 的 过 程 如 下：

-I was on the bus which will fetch us to the Bon Odori Festival.
-As I was going there alone by bus(because I will meet my friends there), I was sitting alone
-Then this guy came to me and ask whether there's someone sitting beside me or not...
- I said NO...
-Then he asked, can he sit or not..
- I said YES...
-He sat down and we start talking.
-I was having a good conversation with him.
Then he asked for my number.
-I GAVE him..
-Then I got his number too..
-Continue chatting...
-Then reach the so-called sport center..
-I went with my friends and he went with his..
-Then he called me and asked whether I found my friend dee or not...
-I said YEAH.. I found my friend..
-And then towards the end of the festival, I somehow found out that he was near by me..
-Then he asked whether can take picture with me or not...
-I said YES again...(friends mah)
-Turned out that his camera wasn't working somemore...(Samsung's fault..lousy camera)
-On the way back , I sat with my friends and he sat with his friends.
-He SMSed me..."What are you doing?"
-I replied "I am tired...want to sleep..."
-Then he asked where wil I meet my parents as it was quite late adee..
-I said my parents were there dee. Thanks for your concern...
-Ok..then i thought he will not contact me anymore...

HOWEVER....
The Next Day...
He messaged me...
Then we chatted...
I still didn't suspect a thing..
Then since then he sms me almost everyday...
Well I admit that it is my wrong for not replying some of his sms...
That because he keep asking me to meet up with him...
It's not that I don't want to..
But I feel that it's a bit weird if someone that you only know for two weeks keep asking me out...and I feel insecure...
Plus I can never go out without my mom's permission...
My life is like a prisoner's life...
If I tell him this, He will never believe...
Will you believe?
A 18-year-old girl is not allowed to go out with her friends whenever she likes..
She can only go out with friends for a few times in A YEAR!
How pathetic she is...
I don't mind if we chat normally online or sms..
Or maybe I've been thinking too much..
May be he just wants to be friend with me..
And now he sms me once in a while...
Trust me, I know that he is a nice guy....
It's just me.....

WHAT'S IS WRONG WITH YOU THANG SUAT WEI!!!!!!??????
I really don't know....
Can anyone tell me?

I don't mean to offend anyone...
So pls don be mad at me k?

I don't know why am I so weird...
I am the one who wanted to be in a relationship but yet..
I always don't have the courage to accept someone...
I am afraid that I will make a wrong decision...
Sometimes I just don't know what I want.....
Haiz....

话 说 回 来，
最 近， 我 发 觉 我 自 己 其 实 很 幸 福。
从 朋 友 到 亲 人，
他 们 所 给 我 的 呵 护、 关 心 及 鼓 励，
让 我 的 心 感 到 非 常 地 温 暖。
有 一 位 学 院 的 朋 友，
其 实 我 在 中 学 时 期 就 知 道 她 的 存 在，
只 不 过 都 不 认 识 对 方。
就 因 为 上 天 的 安 排，
我 与 她 都 在 同 一 班，
还 成 为 相 当 有默 契的朋友。

还有一群陪我渡过漫长的中学时代，
真的好想念你们。

感 觉 上，这个post 好像很奇怪。
因 为 和 开 心 参 半。

我 要 自 由！！！

Then...How about us?

The Prime Minister’s political secretary Datuk Alwi Che Ahmad said Abdullah was genuinely sincere about the talks.

“Pak Lah is thinking of the future of the nation. In his view, the Malays are the core group in the country. If they are split, then it would be difficult for the country to progress.

“National unity also depends on Malay unity and it was on that principle that the meetings were conducted,” he said.

Source: The Star Online

If this is really what happened, then how about us?
National unity does not depend on us?

My Name

What Thang Suat Wei Means

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I know...

I know that I was losing my mind yesterday...
but who wouldn't....

I really can't stand the attitude of some ppl...
Not to mention name...
i am still within my range..
Try to do it again if you dare..
and this time..
i will not tolerate...
you think you are so smart is it?!

I know i scolded bad word yesterday...
but i don't care...
Like what chee yuen had said..
this is the first time that i am so angry....

But some ppl just don't know where their limits are....
shame on you....

ERRRR...........

How do you(if you are a guy) feel when a stranger(A MAN!) called you babe?

OMG....
This happened to my econs teacher 4 years ago....

Have you encountered this kind of thing before?

Welcome back!!!!!

Today, a few of us meet up with yee hooi..


Welcome back dear!!!!!!


We hang out at starbucks for a while then we decided to pay Ms Lum a visit..


Haha....


Then we have chit-chatted at Old town Coffee shop...


So pics time:

From Left: Yi Ping, Yee Hooi, Me and Angie

Me and Yi Ping

Yee Hooi and Me

Me:)

That's all for today.....

A tiring but happy happy day....

Yee Hooi, I'll miss ya!!!!!!

What?!!!!!!!!!

It's only one week since college reopened...
and yet...i've already sensed the tension and the stress....
trial is in less than two months time...haiz...
really have to work hard....
Today we have bio practical...
and i couldn't finish the thing...
ended up i lost 10 marks because i didn't have time to finish the experiment....
Aargh..........
have to time myself and make sure that i can finish my experiment in time...
it was the Visking tube's fault....
i took so long to open that thing and tie it up...
well you know, when you just take it out from water..
it tends to stick together....
i suggested that we should be given a period of time so that we could be trained on how to open up a Visking tube...haha

i wonder why can't they prepare the Visking Tube for us during exam......?????
That's for all.... my mom it's time for me to go home....

Back to college

Hey....
Back to college dee....
The day was fine....haha...
Just not so in the mood yet for study...
BUT.....trials is around the corner.....
Now i hope that the holidays will be longer...
Haha.. me a weirdo...
Posting this from college....
Still waiting for my mom to pick me up...
Btw.. my mom finally bought a car for me....haha
but can't be too happy coz i am still not allowed to drive to college....
haha...
this is a short update...so yea..
ciaoz....
still have work to do....